I wish to believe, but belief is a graveyard.

Okay so currently im reading breaking through for humanities,and eating a brownie while listening to chiodos. Yes i am one of those people that can read and listen to music at the same time. I can multitask my dear :] and to be perfectly honest, this book is in no way whatsoever grasping my attention. Its not because of the genre or anything. I mean ive read books about stuff like this before. But as i have said before it takes ALOT for a book to really grasp my interest entirely. And this book ("Breaking Through") in no way does. But since this is required and i do want to get a good grade in humanites. I guess here my reflection goes?

Okay, so far in what im reading. Roberto got his janitor job back, so they dont have to work in the fields anymore. Which Panchetio is very happy about. And their money got stolen,( The money that they were saving to send to their family).And im just wondering why in the world would he keep the money under a matress? I mean i dont think thats a very good hidding spot at all. Thats where like little kids hide their diary's or whatever. Why doesn't he keep the money in a bank? That way it's safe!


-new song : Hannah Montana, "Nobody's Perfect". :x



okay so still reading...he's saying that everytime he goes home to the empty house he feels lonely.
And i have to admit that even though i can't honestly imagine what he's going to, I would probally be extremely lonely. Even if in this case sceniro and i had a brother or sister. Regaurdless of their pressence i would still be extremly lonely. Because no one can have the same pressence as mom and dad can. And even though a family might not be perfect and even though sometimes you might feel like they dont understand you, and even if sometimes you can't stand them because they are SOOOOOOOO embarresing, and even if you feel like they just want to tourte you all the time. They are still Mom and Dad. The dad that you would call daddy when you were little and you wanted something. And the mom that gave birth to you (and won't ever let you forget that). And they take good care of you, even if they won't buy you everything you want and they make you do ALOT of chores. They do care about you. :] And as much as I hate to admit it, I would be lost without them.


- now some jobro's songs :]

Im glad that hes focusing on school work inplace of his loneliness. Because in the end that will help him. It's like this one time when i was reading seventeen magizine (which im pretty addicted to) and in it, it was talking about breakups. And how with some situations a way that girls handle breakups is to like eat whatever is in their sight or eat tons of ice cream or someother sweet. And they were talking about how thats bad for you, and instead you should do something else. Like excirse instead , so you can do something actually productive that will help you in the long run. So just like that, he will benifit in the end. hahaha oh and it made me laugh when it said that they called him hotshot, because thats actually what me and one of my best friends (sara) call eachother. It's our own inside joke. :]



-now songs from 3OH!3 :]

OH YES!!! ROCK'N ROLL! i actually know the song jailhouse rock...im not sure where i heard it from but i have heard it. Now this book is staring to interest me...which to be honest is quite surprising. Anyways its awesome that he's staring to get into rock'n roll, let alone music.

Music is so powerful and as i once heard someone say it is a universal language. You dont have to know what the words mean to enjoy listening to it. I can't imagine someone who doesnt like music, or someone who has never heard of music. Because afterall, music is everywhere. ANYWAYS im so glad that he decided to like Elvis Presley. Because afterall Evis is BOSS! But i think it was pretty rude for everyone to laugh at him, when he decides to want to do elvis. I mean they could be a bit surportive, and atleast respect him. I mean he was never mean or rude or made fun of any of them. He respected them and yet they laugh in his face when he suggests something. Its just so ...mean.
Okay im not very fond of peggy, or her parents. Why is she avioding him? Because he didnt want to sit with her? And why are her parents so scared and avioding him also? He never did anything. And the way they treat him is like he's unworthy or different or something. It's not right.

Home again right? Now that the family is back with them i wonder what will happen? I mean if this was a happy story than the book would end right when the family come home right? But it doesn't, it just makes me wonder what else could possibly happen? Does someone die? And what will become of the father? What about his bad back? I mean im glad they are home, im sure thats extremly happy news because now they wont be lonely anymore. But i mean seriously theres got to be worser things coming.

Okay so apperently now some of the pages are gone. So i have no idea what im missing. So now it jumps from 43 to 59.

So he's graduating from the 8th grade, and his dad doesn't want him to smell like rotten strawberries.
So i take it that there family is still in California with them.