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Hm, just writing for the sake of writing. I need to clear my head.
These thoughts are not being pleasant.Believe me. Hmmm,
I know, i say hmm too often. I really need to find myself a hobby.
Writing is not calming me down at all, I wish i was in art class.
I would do anything to feel that cold paint on my fingers, see all those colors come to live.
Main reason i wanted art. To help ease me.
I am quite frustrated now...if you haven't noticed. :
It's like, i don't know. It's just my "perspective" has now completely changed.
On everything.
Its like complete realization.
Ever had moments like that? When suddenly everything just...clicks?
That is exactly what is happened to me today after school.
I am still in shock this very moment.
Its like I've got a whole new view.
As cheesy as that sounds. :)
I feel brand new.

Wind turbines, Oh those lovely bird death traps :)
Don't you just love how they slice bats in half? I just love seeing their intestines.
Scattered all over ground, such a lovely sight to see with the family don't you think?
I love all the things wind turbines do for our planet, all the things they rid.
I am simply delighted to tell you, we have found a place
to have HCC wind turbine technology program.
:)whoop whoop.
i am so sure all the dead birds will thank us.

:)Reading Journal.

Currently I am reading Breaking Dawn.
:)can i get a whoop whoop?
So far my hatered of bella has NOT died down,
i still believe she is a selfish pig that gets whatever she wants.
Sometimes reading breaking dawn it is getting harder to hate her for the reason of shes nice.
But how shes trying so hard to be strong really annoys me. I am seriously stop being so fake,
scream if you have to. Your pregant and your baby breaks your ribs. Dont freaking say that everythings okay. :) Oh yeah when i read she was pregant it was like"WOAZAH". Didnt know that was ever going to happen, Alot of people are telling me bella's going to die. I am so happy about that, than again they might just be lying. Or maybe she'll die of her humanness and become a vampire. I wish i could be a vampire....I could like wear a cape and be like "WOAH, BE MEAN TO ME AND I'LL BITE YOU". That would be pure awesomeness :) Hmm anyways im at the part where she bended down and now the baby can't breathe. It's funny how the baby can hear her voice and how it already loves her. Thats one smarrrt baby ;) Hmmm its kinduh werid how bella seems like blood now though. I remember how in twilight she passed out when they were doing the whole blood thing in class. And now shes all "Blood, yum yum for my tum". Its werid, i wonder if the baby would like milk...Anyways i wonder what's going to happen next? And if jacob will ever imprint? Or if sam and the other vampires will really start like a war/fight thing and try to kill bella's baby...OH OH OH, i am so happy jacob is finally an alpha. I mean it was fate for him to be one, good to know he's finally expecting it. Haha i love seth, and his spirit.
So far he's my favorite werewolf. Leah is...well leah is leah. I feel sorry for her but at the same time...well no. I just feel sorry for her. I guess i wish she would give the cullens more of a chance though. I mean they are honestly good people...erm vampires i mean. :)

i hate bella swan with a burning passion.

ugh finished reading eclipse.

i really hate bella.
its not fair.
she shouldnt be able to love both boys.
and why isnt edward mad?
she kissed jacob, she loves him!

if i was him i would be pretty much breaking bellas jaw in half and leave.

ugh ugh ugh.
lifes not fair for everyone else in the world.
but yet bella gets to get away with everything....

i hope she eats a whole buncha people when she becomes a vampire.
and that jacob gets immprinted and forgets all about her....

:)reading journal?

STILL READING ECLIPSE.
But im almost done, and yesterday i brought breaking dawn. So it wont be long untill i start posting about that. Anyways currently at the part where the battle is about to began...kinduh. Right now they are camping in the tents. Edward and Bella were talking about the best 10 nights of their life. And Jacob just overheard them talking about how Edward proposed to Bella. Honestly i think they are totally rushing this whole marriage thing. I mean they just graduated from highschool. They are about to be in this whole war with newborn vampires and they are planning to have the wedding in Vegas (and bella's talking about how she will be wearing sweats). I mean honestly, it doesnt take a rocket scientist to see how terribly planned that is. I don't understand why edward would do such thing and make bella marry him first. GOODNESS, if i was a vampire i would just change her myself to stopp all this unessicary maddness. And i feel so bad for jacob. Because he loves her and he's so convinced that she will love him too, Currently i must confess that i am team jacob. But i wish that boy would take his head outta of the clouds and realize that bella loves edward and only wants to be with edward. I would be devesated if he did anything to ruin bella and edwards love. Not that i think he really could ruin it, since it's so pure and so powerful. Im just exicted to see what will happen next? will someone die? will they caputre bella? Because not to be mean, but i think bella will do something heartless and idiotic. Just to be in that field. Even though edward did promise to be with her. Im starting to get very mad at bella these days...shes starting to be a tad bit to selfish....

:)today.

Was prettah chill man,
:)it was danisaur's birthday.
so whoop,whoop.
she brought these AMAZING cupcakes.
they were so delicious, and yummy.
i was so in love with them i would have married them.
I had like..three cupcakes. :)
hahaha, I'm a cupcake hog.
and than Arielle had cupcakes too.
so i had one of her's.
and than Sebastian bought Dani this cake.
that had snickers and Carmel.
so we all ate it...not all of it though.
so we gave it away...last i saw Gary ate most of it. D:
hahaha no big surprise there :)

so today was full of sweets <3
i guess you can say.
and than we also had a debate in humanities today.
the first time we did it,
it was HILARIOUS.
pure madness for sure.
but the second time it was better,
people weren't as passionate as they were the first time though.

OH AND DANI DREW ME THIS MAGICAL PICTURE.
it has a cupcake and a pig and a french mustache.
and all these other various things.

four day weekend.
ugh finally. :)

Blah.Blah.Blah.

"I lie to myself because I do it best".
--byyy Hit the Lights

Sooo...Just typing whatever comes to mind. :)
This is just some random blog, well...actually i would perfer the word scattered instead.
Dani's Birthday (Birrrfffday Day) im not sure what to get her. I have no money though.
This economy crisis is sucha bore.
IM WATCHING LOVEBUG. :)
Mannn, I love that song.
"Hopeless, Head Over Heel's In The Moment, I Never Thought That I'd Catch This Lovebug Again."
I wish they played it on the radio more.
Psh, i wish the jonas brothers went to my school.

A girl can dream right? :)

I had yummy fuze today, it was this black green tea one.
But Ivan got me thinking on why it was called black green tea? How could it be both? :X
Geez, this world is just so confusing.

So im listening to this song right? No longer lovebug.
It starts of with:

"If only you were a ship, i'd sail the seven seas. Claiming all the land in the name of you&&me"

adorable right? it just made me go all nandsglfoaaqqiwoalbxz!
:)ilovecutesongs<3

Reading Journalllll :D

So im still reading eclispse, :)
usually i would be done with a book like this already but im not.
Even sonja is catching up with me and she was reading twilight when i started reading eclipse...yeah it's sad i know. ANYWHO, currently im at the part when they are deciding how to get rid of the newborn vampire that is killing everyone. :) isn't that lovely? And Jasper told his whole story of his newbornhood, and how he was part of a newborn army in the south. And about Maria and everything. It kind of surprised me about his whole story, i thought it would be like all the others, like carsile saved him when he was dying and than all that jazz. And helped his with all this stuff about being a vampire but it was much more violent and unexpected. At first he started the whole story with showing the scar on his hand, which bella has too. (She got it from james in twilight, when he bit her). And so i thought maybe it was a mark and maybe something special would happen. But no...it didnt have anything to do with some undiscovered secret or whatever. So personally for me that was a let down, i was sad for like one mintue...than i got over it :).Hmmm so anyways im really curious to find out how they are going to get rid of the vampire and who their backup will be. Bella says that someone will die. No onfense but i hope Rosalie dies...if i HAD to choose it would be her. I think ill shes useful for is her beauty. Other than that all she does is go around and be a complete SNOB. But that's just my opinion. :) So before you stop me at school and start a riot against me remember that. :D