:)In Class Reading Journal

"I've never been one to mind not having a mind of my own."

This quote makes me want to laugh, and reminds me of something that would be in Disney movies. I mean it's so simple, yet tells you so many things. Don't you love it when there are situations like that, like when you don't have to say a lot. Because there is so many things unsaid that just comes from saying very few words.

My question is, if you don't mind not having your own mind, than what will you do once, your on your own? I mean like when you depend on so many people making decisions for you. When are you ever going to be yourself? Or how do you know when you are being your own person...I don't know how to explain it. I guess i can use the above the influence commercials as an example. Like when this one guy is standing, and all these other people are changing him into what they think he should be. I mean it in that way. If your going to let people make you who you are...than how do you know when you are ever going to be truly yourself?

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"For some of us, feel and humiliation feel honest. They ensure devotion more than reverence, more than love. The damned loves the hand of the executioner. And compassion holds more weight when it follows ruthlessness. Frankly speaking, "You've got to be cruel to be kind."

:)i absoutely loved that qoute the first time i read it because it really makes you think. I mean you got to be cruel to be kind? I never thought that...i mean i thought you had to kind to be kind. aha. mhmmm im not even sure if that makes much sense, but my goodness...doesn't that quote sound amazing? :)

Next qoute:
"For the first time, with a stranger in a strange car, I feel. From nowhere desire surfaces, and it swirls through my insides. The want is thrumming and it is everywhere, like a hive knocked from a tree that unfixes a squall of bees. The fluttering in my chest is as unfounded and unnerving as the riot itself. And the dread follows it because I know in an instant that I would, and will, do anything in pursuit of this yearing. It will not be enough to want once. I will want to want a million times over, to feel this warmth were there use to coldness, this prickling sensation where everything was once numb."

Okay so i just read that qoute this morning, at like 7 am...bahahaha even when there is no school. I STILL tend to wake up early. So anyways, i am in the part of the book where she is falling in love with a boy chris that she saw at a bar and than see's again at this block thing. They were curently in the trunk thingy or a truck kissing and drunk. And than that qoute came up. I think it's very beauitful but to be quite honest it scares me that she feels that way. Because she is most often times drunk, and when you love someone and your drunk and they are drunk...i dont know. It's just i fear that something bad is going to come from this. Afterall I know this is not some fairytale happy story...

Media TIME ;)

Whoop!Whoop!
Okay so Media means too me, that you basically advertise things :]
When I think of the word media, I instantly think about computers, the world wide web and fashion magazines ;) ESPECIALLY fashion magazines&& teen magazines because majority of women read them. And they are always adverting things to us, and telling us how to be, and who to be. I deffinatly think that the media runs our lives. I mean it consues us. Media is EVERYWHERE (scary right?) A part of me doesn't think that we would be able to live without it :O

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MMMkay so i am still reading "Smashed" and i love ittttt<3
there are like alot of pages i folded in the book, because i love what it's been saying. likeeee this one:
"It's strange the way the mind remembers forgetting. The fact of the blackout won't slip away like the events that took place inside of it. Instead of receding into my life's story, the lost hours will stand out. Something else will move in to fill in the holes:dread and denial that thickens with time like emotional scar tissue. In the absence of memory, the night will be even more memorable. The blackout will stay with me, causing chronic psychic pain, a persistent, subconscious thrumming."

:)amazing right? Right now, im at the part that she came back in the morning after sneaking out to a party with her best friend natalie. And her parents what to speak to her. This is not the first time she has drank though, she has even gotten drunk before. Might i add to you that she is fifteen? Yup just one year older than i am, and she has already drank so many times. This book is exicting and wonderful. And not boring at all...which sumwhat surprised me because i really thought it would me. And i actually bought the book in a thrift store :O Yep for 50 cents. ahahahaha. I wonder what will happen next with her, i mean a 15 year old getting drunk is NOT a good idea...i mean what if bad people decide to do bad things to her? Righhht?

Whoop!Whoop! Break's Ending :)// Somewhat Reading Journal Post.

Okay so break is offically over;
hmmm school will be starting again today;
no offense but thats a total BLEH!
I love school but man..i would give so much to be back in bed right now;
Oh well, :)
So the book iv'e read over break is called "Smashed"
Yeah I changed it; the other book did exactly..capture my attention.
This book is WAY better :) It's about a girl's drunken childhood;
HAHAHAHA; you didn't see that coming did ya?
But i love it anyways, some of the writing in it is beautiful.
You know how sometimes you can like read a paragraph and after it's like "YES! EXACTLY!"
Hmm thats how ive felt like 200x times within like the first twenty pages.
Which is very impressive to me :)

AHHH school time;
I need to pick up my carpool. Bye! :D